Changing it Up

As I have reviewed my entries for the last several days I have realized just how lame they have been.  Suffice to say, I have been extremely tired by the time I have had the opportunity to sit down and record something. I am contemplating taking a step back on my daily entries.  It has been some 24 years that I have written daily in my journal.  That is a long time.  Some of those recordings are of greater importance in my life history than others.  Some simply reflect a commitment to keeping a record while others have deeper meaning.  I don't see a lot of value in those recordings that I have made lately. I am clearly tired but so is anybody that tries to squeeze every last second out of the day to do things of relatively little value.  I love mowing the lawn.  I did that yesterday.  It was wonderful.  I did several other things that kept me busy.  I even went and treated myself to a movie including popcorn and a drink.  That was big time for me because I really have a hard time spending money on food and drink at such outrageous mark ups.  Maybe it was just an early birthday treat, I don't know. In the end, I got home late, I was exhausted, I sat down to write and couldn't keep my eyes open.  I recording some meaningless garb about being tired.  What is the value in that?

And so it is I find myself thinking about my journal keeping and wonder if it isn't time to make a change.  My life is about to get extremely busy with student teaching starting in 12 days.  I don't know what to expect.  I've got boys coming home next week and we are going to have a very busy 4 months.  Writing everyday that I am tired and busy just doesn't make sense especially since that simple recording usually involves me sitting down and falling asleep throughout the process until I finally give up trying to record something.  I believe it is time to stop wasting my time just so I can say I've kept a record.  I will continue to make recordings but will reserve those recordings for things of greater meaning in my life.  I don't know how that is all going to work but I am signing off of this daily reporting for now.  My focus moving forward will be to record things of greater value and more meaning in my life.  I don't know how often that will be.  I might be right back here tomorrow night because this is such an established routine for me.  Anyway, it is time.