Breaking Point

Some days are hard and by that I don't mean the day itself but the circumstances of the day can be hard.  I am tired and I am struggling with the load I am carrying right now and I was at a breaking point several hours ago.  The hard part about everything is that I have no time off, ever.  Life is constantly on the move and if I take an hour or two to relax and watch a show or something I end up having to make up for that time later.  Maybe that is why it is 2 AM and I am writing this entry.  I have a big paper due on Monday and I wanted to get it knocked out today.  My last few weeks of the semester are stacked and so I have to try and get a head where I can so I can stay on track.  It is nice to have the paper done but I didn't want to do it today and so maybe that is why I was struggling. I'm tired.  Single dad-hood is not easy and I'm struggling right now.  I'm just rambling tonight.  Don't know if I am saying anything of importance.  Let me just say that there was a moment when I wanted to find a place a to hide, maybe assume the fetal position for a while and let it out.  I didn't want to do anything else and I was a bit depressed when it hit me to just get up and get the kids dinner.  I did and my perspective changed and my attitude improved and I was able to press forward.  Action, positive action in the right direction helps.