Emotions

I chose not to write about a few things yesterday as it was Jack's big day and I didn't want to distract from that.  I had mentioned that I went to the local grocery store to pick up some goodies yesterday morning.  While I was walking the store I was thinking about the kids and that they would be heading to Alaska soon.  That is a hard thing for me and as I walked around the store I had to fight back the tears every now and again.  I don't want to sound selfish, I have them for 10 months out of the year and walk in exhaustion for pretty much all of that 10 months but these are my kids, my family.  I don't have a lot of friends.  I don't do a lot outside of family and work.  I don't hang out with friends, I don't really have time for that.  Natty, Jack and Andy are my friends, they keep me going.  Anyhow, I thought about them leaving and I was sad. 

At the same time I am happy that they get to spend time with their mom.  I know it is important for them and for her.  I know that it makes them happy to see her and be with her and for that I am happy.  They get to spend two months up in Alaska this summer.  Who wouldn't want to do that?  They get to go fishing and do all kinds of things that many people only dream about doing.  That is pretty exciting stuff for them. 

In any case, it has been a bit of an emotional couple of days.  I am grateful for the comfort I have felt through the spirit.  I will miss them tremendously but am grateful for the opportunities they have before them.  Sure do love Natty Sue, Andy and Jack.