Got No Time

The song No Time by The Guess Who is a classic. I am guessing on the name of the song, it could be Got No Time, it could be something completely different. Regardless, in the song the lyrics say "I've got, got, got, got not time. I've got, got, got, got no time..." Lately I have felt a little bit like that. I am running on empty and there isn't a lot of time for recharging right now. Last nights post is an example. I sat down to write that around 10:30 or so and didn't get it done until after midnight because I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. I know, no big surprise that it took that long. It is one of my longer posts and should have taken that long.

I was up this morning, had a shower and got the kids somewhat situated with breakfast, chocolate milk and what not and then I headed into to work. I came home a while later to check on everyone and found the house trashed. I had a little lunch, made lunch for everyone else and then cleaned up some. I went back to work. I picked up some Pizza for dinner so I didn't have to cook anything tonight, served the fam, read some books with the kids, and did some additional cleaning. We then had scriptures and prayer and now my kids are in bed with the exception of Andy.

It is 10:53 PM right now and I am pretty well exhausted. I still need to run, still have more to clean, still have 4 loads of laundry from earlier in the week that need to be folded. I have a really hard time living in a mess and so I think I will have a late night.

When I was home for a bit this afternoon I was thinking about single moms that go out and get it done. They work, take care of the house and take care of kids. This life never slows down. You have to constantly be moving. It occurred to me that it isn't just single moms doing this. I am in the middle of it myself and there are plenty of other men that are having to do the same. It isn't an easy go. You are alone at the end of the day. There is no one to help with the load and the responsibility for everything falls on you and you alone. It certainly makes you appreciate the assistance received from family who help to fill the void.

Things get missed. It is hard. It is lonely. All you can do is the best that you can. I hope that my best right now is good enough. I don't have time right now for it not to be good enough and I have 3 beautiful children that are counting on me and I cannot fail them. One day I will have time but for now I got, got, got, got none of it.