No Father of the Year Here

Didn't Bill Clinton recently win Father of the Year?  How do you do that?  How do you do that when your kids (or only child in the case of Bill Clinton) are all grown and out of the house?  Oh well, I really am not bothered by the award.  If they felt he was worthy of it then so be it.  Not a big deal to me, I mean, I'm not going to lose any sleep over it.  I only lose sleep over trying to keep up with being a single father.  Midnight laundry, that is fun.  Midnight housekeeping, also fun.  Missing time with the kids because you have to work to try and support the family, not so fun.  Not fun at all.  It is a bit of a stinger and it makes me realize that I am not doing a real good job.  There is not father of the year award coming here.  Not at all.  And so sometimes I feel guilty.  I accidentally spelled guilty with a Q and I said to myself that I really don't feel quilty, that would just be weird.  Guilty - sometimes.  Because it is easy to punish yourself for not being able to be all that you want to be or do all that you want to do for your kids.  Sometimes you get stuck down in the trenches and you just have to fight to keep things going, to stay alive.  That isn't much fun and it can be easy to beat yourself up.  In the end I may not win any father of the year awards and that is okay.  All we can do is press forward and do the very best that we can to follow the Lord and bring our children up in righteousness.