A Little Tired

My recent posts have been a little sad.  Not a lot going on upstairs once I get the kids to bed.  I am just out of energy and when I sit down to write it usually ends up with me waking up some time later, realizing that quite some time has passed and I haven't gotten very far in my blog.  Perhaps I need to adjust a couple of things. 

Why so tired or the lack of energy?  Well, I don't know.  I am up early and running a few miles, then I am racing to get the boys ready for school, dropping them off and coming home to try and get a little house cleaning done or something accomplished before going to work.  Then I work and that is up on my feet all day kind of work.  Once I get home I am trying to feed kids, read with kids, listen to a lot of talk about trains and hot wheels and, well, trains and hot wheels.  Did I mention trains?  Jack has so much information in his head and so many ideas regarding trains that it can become a little exhausting just to try and keep up with him.  I suggested that maybe we can get a large board and start a model train set.  He put in my place pretty quickly and let me know we are not using a board, we will be building a garden train set on the ground.  So yes, train discussions, hot wheel discussions, other homework then we try and get over to the pool for a bit.  Once we get home it is scripture and prayer time then off to bed.  Oh, there are showers and other things in there as well.  Once I finally sit down I am spent. 

I used to be able to sit down with some sunflower seeds or a bag of popcorn, need I mention my favorite pistachios?  Anyway, those things would keep me awake for the most part.  With this diet those things are off limits.  When I pull up my blog I start to ponder a few things that I might write about and then... I eventually wake up. 

So hey, faithful readers of the blog out there.  Sorry for my lack of interesting content of late.  In actuality this is simply my journal and I suppose the exhausted blogs are merely a reflection on this period of time in my life.  I can say that I have a profound respect for single parents.  I did not realize how much work this takes.  Three years ago I began getting a feel for it and certainly understand it now.  It is hard and not just the endless schedule but the fact that with all you are doing you know inside that it isn't enough and there are things that are missing.  I don't know how to express that sadness I feel because of that.  It is very difficult and I guess that is when we turn to our faith in Jesus Christ and we trust that he will magnify our efforts and that somehow those things that are missed are made up for. 

So I am a little tired but I know in whom I trust.  I am grateful for promises made that my shoulders are blessed to bare the burdens that shall be placed thereon.  Those blessings are delivered in a variety of ways and I share that it is not my strength alone that keeps me going. To my savior I give thanks.  To my family and friends I give the same.  You are my sources of strength that lift me when I am down and give me courage to carry on.