Wingnuts

What is the definition of a wingman?  Is it someone that's got your... wing?  Perhaps someone that's got you covered.  I really don't know.  Today I had to contact a girl about a blind date and had no idea how to do it.  I turned to Dave and Amy for a little help on the matter.  I'll call them my wingnuts. 

So here's the deal Dave googles how to start a conversation with a girl/woman via text.  It comes back with a variety of suggestions.  Oh it had some cheesy questions to kick things off - none of which were used.  It did provide other insights and suggested that a man that texts rather then calls is a wimp.  That hit a little close to home.  I am much more comfortable texting then I am calling.  Can't help it.  I have a hard time speaking, feel like I am muttering.  I also have a hard time hearing clearly on the phone.  I can't even use the phone on my right ear - don't know why, I must have some sort of mental block. 

I don't really like to think that a texting man is a wimp as much as maybe he is shy.  Shy I am but is that all?  Probably not.  I'm sure it comes down to quite a bit more in my case.  Is it confidence?  That may just be the head of the nail that I need to hit.  No doubt in my mind that when it comes to ladies I lack confidence.  I remember being in the University Ward and Pete telling me that all these ladies were interested in me.  Nope, no way.  I don't see myself, never saw myself as any sort of ladies man.  I am far from tall, dark and handsome.  If the ladies dream man was more of the short, pudgy and pale variety...  Seriously though, I don't see myself bringing a lot to the table when it comes to certain things in life that society says are important.  In my own mind I see those things as what ladies want and I don't have it. 

Why do I feel this way?  Lets just say that certain things that have happened in my life over the last few years have contributed.  I bear scars emotionally and inside that contribute greatly to that lack of confidence and a feeling that what I have to give isn't good enough.  Oh goodness, that is hard to say, hard to admit but it is reality in my mind.  To put myself out there again when these fears exist inside is extremely difficult.  So yes, I am a little shy.  I guess I need to figure out how to get beyond these things. 

So be it that I am a wimp or that indeed I am shy it takes a bit of bravery to send the text or make the call.  Maybe this is where my wingnuts come in.  Sure they laugh at me and think it is funny but I know they are pulling for me.  Not only that but they give great pointers like "oh, I see we both have cell phones".  Have you ever heard such a great conversation starter?